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This Close to Okay: A Novel Hardcover – February 2, 2021

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A powerful, vibrant novel about the life-changing weekend shared between two strangers, from the award-winning writer Roxane Gay calls "a consummate storyteller."​

On a rainy October night in Kentucky, recently divorced therapist Tallie Clark is on her way home from work when she spots a man precariously standing at the edge of a bridge. Without a second thought, Tallie pulls over and jumps out of the car into the pouring rain. She convinces the man to join her for a cup of coffee, and he eventually agrees to come back to her house, where he finally shares his name: Emmett. 

Over the course of the emotionally charged weekend that follows, Tallie makes it her mission to provide a safe space for Emmett, though she hesitates to confess that this is also her day job. What she doesn’t realize is that Emmett isn’t the only one who needs healing—and they both are harboring secrets.

Alternating between Tallie and Emmett’s perspectives as they inch closer to the truth of what brought Emmett to the bridge’s edge—as well as the hard truths Tallie has been grappling with since her marriage ended—
This Close to Okay is an uplifting, cathartic story about chance encounters, hope found in unlikely moments, and the subtle magic of human connection.

​Longlisted for the 2022 Mark Twain American Voice in Literature Award
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A Conversation with Leesa Cross-Smith

When did you first have the idea for This Close to Okay, and why did you choose to make mental health one of its central themes?

Most of the time it’s difficult for me to say when I first had the ideas for my books, because I usually can’t remember, and I usually work over such a long period of time! But I want to say it was somewhere between 2015 and 2016 that I started thinking about these characters. I knew from that first flash that one of the characters was going to be considering suicide, with the other one attempting to stop them, so mental health was a central theme from the beginning. When considering characters and themes, I’m always looking for a way in…a connection…and in this case, there was no other consideration regarding my way in. I knew this was it from the moment it came to me. And since mental health is so important and so much about survival and I enjoy reading and writing about how people make it through life…all aspects of that…it made sense to me.

Music and art feature significantly in the novel; Tallie plays Wilco and Andrew Bird for Emmett in order to keep him from jumping off the bridge, and they later bond over their favorite visual artists. Did any specific songs or pieces of art inspire you while writing?

I’m always inspired by Vincent van Gogh. His letters, his paintings, his life, his struggles with his own mental health. He’s one of my favorite people. There’s a desperation that so many artists have…this drive and need to create, no matter their circumstances, no matter their health, no matter how many times they’re told no…that interests and inspires me. How people keep going, no matter what. I thought about that a lot while writing this book. How the characters stay afloat, even when things feel impossible.

I love The Impressionists and anything Art History related. “Human Thing” by The Be Good Tanyas is one song I listened to a lot. Also, “Finishing the Hat” from Sunday in the Park with George. And Sam Cooke. I love the Andrew Bird song and chose it almost randomly because his first name comes at the beginning of the alphabet. Tallie was trying to get to a song as quickly as possible in order to distract Emmett from jumping. And I chose the Wilco song “Jesus, Etc.” because it has Jesus in the title and I love Jesus. It’s a very soothing, comforting song for me. I found myself listening to it a lot after 9/11. It’s a perfect song.

Throughout the book, Tallie puts a big emphasis on how self-care rituals and creating a comfortable—or hygge—physical space can improve mental health. What are you some of your favorite rituals or objects that put you in a good headspace during stressful times?

I’m a big tea drinker, so having my teapot is definitely a favorite object and ritual for me. If it’s nice enough, I like having a window open so I can hear the birds. (I’m a birder!) And all of the furniture in our house is very soft and soothing. I have a pink velvet couch and velvet pillows, plants, twinkle lights, etc. I can’t control the world or anything that happens in it, but what I can do is make my house as cozy and comfortable as possible, so I do that as much as I can!

Do you have any rituals specific to writing? What are you like when you’re in the middle of a project?

I don’t have any other rituals specific to writing besides my teapot, really. I write at home and I rarely listen to music while I’m writing. And I never wait until I “feel” like writing in order to write. I write whether I “feel” like it or not. I just get to work. It’s how I get things done.

When I’m in the middle of a project, I’m probably a bit like Doc from the Back to the Future movies, honestly. Wild eyes, wild hair! To someone not in my intimate circle, I probably seem like a bit of a mess maybe? Hyper-focused on my book. There’s a certain level of obsessiveness I have to maintain in order to finish a project. I have a journal I carry with me everywhere just in case I think of something and I usually watch movies that inspire me. I go for long walks alone or sometimes with my husband. I need to be alone quite a bit in order to work.

Depression and suicidal ideation are very personal and sensitive subjects for a lot of people; how did you approach writing about them? Were there any tropes or common misconceptions about these topics that you tried to avoid?

One thing I did was avoid using the word “commit” when writing about suicide. I’d read a lot about how that wording can be hurtful, so I didn’t use it. I tried to be as careful as possible with my words. I also wanted to make sure I allowed room for the complexity of suicidal ideation. For some people, it can be a sudden, impulsive thing. For others, a lot of planning happens. For some people, those feelings can go away and never resurface again. For others, it’s a lifelong battle. And I would say the same for depression. It can take many different forms and what works for one person may not work for another. I try my best not to assume things and not to lump everything or everyone together because every circumstance is different, and people are very multilayered and complex.

I wanted to make sure that my characters were presented as fully formed people who are flawed and real and who change their minds and have conflicting feelings. Someone battling depression can definitely have lighter moments when they feel a lift…and someone who doesn’t battle depression can definitely have darker, heavier days. I wanted to capture the complicated, messy humanness of those thoughts and feelings.

At one point, Tallie jokingly says that “no one should be on Facebook.” Do you agree? What’s your relationship with social media?

I have a complicated relationship with social media! I love it for the jokes, but I hate all the negativity. As best as I can, I try to use it for the tool it is. And it can be a really great tool! I go to it; I don’t let it come to me. I don’t have notifications turned on or anything. And it’s not a huge part of my life, no. I don’t get or need validation from it. I’m not really into hanging out on there all day. I would never argue on there. I never have! I’m mostly quiet…I post about books…I post things that inspire me. I aggressively reject all the negativity and collective anxiety. And maybe that’s my age and that I was lucky enough to grow up without it? The most important thing re: how I feel about social media is that when I’m tired of it and don’t need to use it, I log off…I literally delete the apps from my phone. It’s so freeing!

Did you encounter any roadblocks while writing this novel? In general, how do you deal with creative setbacks?

There is almost always a point while I’m writing a book when I think…oh no what do I do now?! But I’m used to it! And there are always specific plot points or things I need to figure out how to make work and if they aren’t working…it’s hard for me to think about anything else until I figure them out. But I always figure them out. Somehow!

I really just push through when it comes to creative setbacks. I’m a workaholic, which is something I am trying to get better at, but I just keep at it because I’m quite stubborn about it. So while I may take a bit of time off, (and by that I mean a night or a day) I’ve found that the best approach for me is to keep working through it until I figure it out. It’s frustrating and exhausting, but I don’t know how else to do it.

This is a massive understatement, but 2020 was obviously a difficult year for everyone. How have you been taking care of your mental health during this stressful time? Did you ever find yourself thinking back to This Close to Okay and taking the advice Tallie (or rather, you) gave to Emmett?

I’ve definitely been digging in even more (if that’s possible for me!) to the cozy, comforting things I always depend on when it comes to my mental health. My faith in a sovereign God and His unfailing love, tea and soft pajamas, spending time with my little family, British mysteries, period pieces, living slowly, going for walks, art, making dinner.

I do find myself thinking about Tallie a lot! Her knitting and her cats and candles. Her house! And most importantly, her heart. I think often of 1 Peter 4:8…“Aboveall, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins.”And I don’t mean that in a generic, hashtaggy way. I mean that in a real way. Love, kindness, forgiveness, gentleness, and softness in a super negative, anxious, toxic environment…I’m not saying those things are an instant magical fix for a hellscape, but I am saying a whole lot of good and beautiful things start there.

Editorial Reviews

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"Leesa Cross-Smith is a consummate storyteller who uses her formidable talents to tell the oft-overlooked stories of people living in that great swath of place between the left and right coasts."―Roxane Gay, New York Times bestselling author

“This book hits the ground running. Cross-Smith writes tenderly about the trial and error of intimacy and draws you in with enormous warmth and control.”―
Raven Leilani, New York Times bestselling author of Luster

"Leesa Cross-Smith writes the way many people wish they could: ferociously, tenderly, and with a tremendous amount of heart. The stories contained in
So We Can Glow showcase the very best of Cross-Smith's voice. They stick with readers long after the book is closed. This collection is tantalizing and Cross-Smith is a delight."―Kristen Arnett, New York Times bestselling author of Mostly Dead Things (on So We Can Glow)

“Leesa Cross-Smith has written a book to help us through these bleak and confusing times.
This Close to Okay is a story of loneliness and wrenching loss, perfectly counterbalanced by the compassion of strangers and the love of family. This book is a hand-knitted sweater in the middle of a cold winter night.”―Bryn Greenwood, New York Times bestselling author of The Reckless Oath We Made

"This Close to Okay is such a joy to read! It at once delights and moves, its sweetness and sass and sexiness balanced with deep questions about honesty, intimacy, and heartbreak. Leesa Cross-Smith is a confident storyteller and, in her hands, her characters come alive; they are fallible, charming, complicated, and--like all of us--aching for connection."
 ―
Edan Lepucki, New York Times author of California and Woman No. 17

"
This Close to Okay is the kind of novel that allows the reader to slip into a world rich with both comforts and troubles. The story of Emmett and Tallie is delicious, romantic, cozy, and satisfying, and it's also mysterious, unstable, and loaded with loss. This book opens up hard emotions and truths, but it also offers moments of relief and attention to the sustaining pleasures of life."―Naima Coster, author of What's Mine and Yours and Halsey Street

"One of those rare feel-good novels that also crackles with wisdom,
This Close to Okay introduces readers to two characters who will come to feel like cherished friends. . . Over the course of a single weekend, their many conversations on love, loss, grief, and joy coalesce into a primer on human goodness.”―Elle

“With an effortlessly Baldwinian style of misleading simplicity, Leesa Cross-Smith's beguiling prose lures readers in from the first moments. Reading Cross-Smith is like stepping into seemingly calm water, only to be swept away by the force of a story so immediate, and characters so intimate and bewitching, that you do not want to come up for air.”
 ―
Bethany C Morrow, author of Mem and A Song Below Water

“Another page-turner . . . A story about the power of vulnerability and connection,
This Close to Okay is a moving reminder of the importance of authentic human relationships.”―Refinery29

“One of the most charming and uplifting stories I’ve read recently. It’s the perfect dose of escapism.”―
Maisy Card, Glamour

“Leesa Cross-Smith is the most intimate and tender writer on my bookshelf. Once I started reading
This Close to Okay, I couldn't stop. Weekend reading at its finest, this story about chance strangers in the mist will spark every ember in your chest and leave you breathless. Cross-Smith's wondrous and nimble heart beats true on every page.”
 ―
Amy Jo Burns, author of Shiner

“A novel about just how powerful someone could be in another person’s life.”―
Shondaland

"
This Close To Okay is a story to be savored with prose at once lavish and lithe. A voice unmistakable and unforgettable, Smith is a stylist in the most wondrous sense of the word." ―David Joy, author of When These Mountains Burn

 "A touching story about two strangers who meet under the worst of circumstances, but end up finding love and healing within each other."―
Marie Claire

“This is a heartfelt and moving novel about grief, love, second chances, and the coincidences that change lives. Leesa Cross-Smith is a wonderful writer and a wonderful caregiver of her characters, showing them the kindness they can't always show themselves, and giving readers a tender, intoxicating reading experience we won't soon forget.”  
 ―
Lydia Kiesling, author of The Golden State

"Leesa Cross-Smith’s
This Close to Okay navigates difficult subjects with great tenderness and the beautiful, emotionally rich language she’s known for. By turns heartbreaking, charming, surprising and funny, Cross-Smith deftly explores what it means to be okay in the face of what life hands us."―Elizabeth Crane, author of The History of Great Things

“An emotional, uplifting tale of hope, chosen family, and the healing power of human connection, especially at the moments when we’re most determined to be alone.”―
Good Housekeeping

"Few writers are able to tap into our deepest emotions the way Leesa Cross-Smith can. In
This Close to Okay she has created characters we will never forget and has taken us to a part of America that too few know or understand, revealing it in all of its complexity and humanity in a way that only she can. Along the way Cross-Smith gives us music, wit, and most of all, a meditation on human connection in a time when we need it more than ever. This Close to Okay is nearly impossible to put down and it solidifies Cross-Smith as one of our best and brightest writers working today."―Silas House, author of Southernmost

“A poignant page-turner about perseverance and two broken people who, like all of at one time or another, just need someone to tell them everything’s going to be all right.”―
Real Simple

"With great tenderness and care, Leesa Cross-Smith has written a beautiful, moving story about the ways the heart hurts in this world—and the depths we'll go to help each other heal.
This Close to Okay is a balm for anyone who's ever felt their faith in themselves or others begin to fade."
 ―
Natalia Sylvester, author of Everyone Knows You Go Home

"Explores fragility, grief, and the effects of mental illness in this wonderfully strange novel about new love between broken people . . .  As dark and tense as it is flirty and humorous, this moving novel offers consistent surprises."―
Publishers Weekly

“Cross-Smith once again shows adeptness at exploring the range of human emotions, particularly the fragility of relationships in the wake of tragedy…offer[s] twists that keep the novel interesting and realistic. A page-turning pleasure with a heroine to love.”―
Booklist

"Cross-Smith’s writing is reliably a delight—Roxane Gay has called her 'a consummate storyteller'—and in a time of such isolation, a novel about strangers coming together seems especially appealing."―
Electric Literature

"In search of a beach read that will give you all the feels and then some feels you didn't know you needed? Start with Leesa Cross-Smith's heartfelt novel 
This Close to Okay, a story of how human connection and healing are often intertwined . . . This Close to Okay might not seem like an obvious beach read, but in Cross-Smith's def hands, the plot is as powerful as its emotional revelations." ―Oprah Daily

"Uplifting." ―
Harper's Bazaar

"Make sure you have a pack of tissues at the ready."―
Cosmopolitan

"Following her wildly successful short story collection, Leesa Cross-Smith has written a lovely novel about two strangers, brought together unexpectedly, and the hope and connection they provide one another."―
Ms. Magazine

“A fast-moving, drama-filled roller coaster that will keep you guessing about how things will turn out for these two lost souls.”―
BookPage

"The reader cannot help but root for [Tallie and Emmett] to find themselves and their happiness."―
SheReads

"An insightful look at grief, pain, and healing."―
BookBub

“Inventive. Authentic. Honest.”―
Craft Literary

“I’ve laughed with Tallie and Emmett. I’ve cried with them too. We’ve listened to music, watched movies, had meals together. Not to mention all the honest conversations about love, life, grief and death. Now that I finished reading this extraordinary and oh so heartwarming story, I’m not sure how to move on. I miss them both deeply.”
 ―
Carolina Setterwall, author of Let’s Hope for the Best

"I so admire these stirring, sexy, haunting stories about the darkest corners of women's inner lives. A treat for the soul and the senses, and funny too. Leesa Cross-Smith is a wonderful storyteller."―
Alexia Arthurs, award-winning author of How to Love a Jamaican (on So We Can Glow)

"
So We Can Glow is precise and yearning in all the right ways. Cross-Smith understands sex and lust and love and all the ways they can get crossed up. Inventive in form, drifting from poetry to prose to script to smartphone text to receipt, Cross-Smith explores our affections, how they flourish or, more often, unravel, and her writing delivers this wisdom with blunt honesty and sex appeal to spare. It brings into existence secrets we didn't even know we had."―JM Holmes, award-winning author of How Are You Going to Save Yourself (on So We Can Glow)

"The magic of
So We Can Glow is that no matter who you are, no matter your circumstances, no matter your gender identity, when reading this book you become the girls and women in these pages. You hope their hopes, dream their dreams, fantasize and love alongside them. Leesa Cross-Smith is some sort of sorceress."―Rion Amilcar Scott, PEN/Robert W. Bingham Prize-winning author of Insurrections and The World Doesn't Require You (on So We Can Glow)

"These stories, brief but dense with emotion, will make you feel like you're falling in love—again and again and again. They drop the reader into moments that feel soaked with longing, like strawberries in champagne. Through Cross-Smith's characters, we experience the messiness, the ache, but mostly the glory of female desire."―
Amy Bonnaffons, author of The Regrets and The Wrong Heaven (on So We Can Glow)

"An uplifting story of how one encounter can change our lives in the way we don't expect."―
Hong Kong Tatler

"This Close to Okay will have you enthralled in the story of Emmett and Tallie—with each character revealing the truths behind that monumental weekend from their own perspectives."―RUSSH

About the Author

Leesa Cross-Smith is a homemaker and the author of Every Kiss A War, Whiskey & Ribbons, So We Can Glow, and This Close to Okay. She lives in Kentucky with her husband and their two teenagers. Find more at LeesaCrossSmith.com.

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  • Publisher ‏ : ‎ Grand Central Publishing; First Edition (February 2, 2021)
  • Language ‏ : ‎ English
  • Hardcover ‏ : ‎ 320 pages
  • ISBN-10 ‏ : ‎ 1538715376
  • ISBN-13 ‏ : ‎ 978-1538715376
  • Item Weight ‏ : ‎ 1.1 pounds
  • Dimensions ‏ : ‎ 6.45 x 1.65 x 9.3 inches
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Leesa Cross-Smith is a homemaker and writer from Kentucky. She is the author of GOODBYE EARL, HALF-BLOWN ROSE, THIS CLOSE TO OKAY, SO WE CAN GLOW, WHISKEY & RIBBONS, and EVERY KISS A WAR. Her next novel is the forthcoming AS YOU WISH. HALF-BLOWN ROSE was the Amazon Editors’ Spotlight for June 2022 and the inaugural pick for Amazon’s Editorial Director Sarah Gelman’s Book Club Sarah Selects. THIS CLOSE TO OKAY was a Goodreads Choice 2021 Nominee for Best Fiction, a Book of the Month Book of the Year 2021 Nominee, a Book of the Month Early Release Pick for December 2020, the Good Housekeeping Book Club Pick for February 2021, and the Marie Claire Book Club Pick for March 2021. THIS CLOSE TO OKAY was also longlisted for the 2022 Mark Twain American Voice in Literature Award. SO WE CAN GLOW was listed as one of NPR’s Best Books of 2020 and was longlisted for the 2021 Joyce Carol Oates Prize. WHISKEY & RIBBONS won the 2019 Independent Publisher Book Awards (IPPY) Gold Medal in Literary Fiction, was longlisted for the 2018 Center for Fiction First Novel Prize, and was one of O Magazine's 2018 Top Books of Summer. EVERY KISS A WAR was nominated for the PEN Open Book Award (2014) and was a finalist for both the Flannery O'Connor Award for Short Fiction (2012) and the Iowa Short Fiction Award (2012). Find more @ LeesaCrossSmith.com

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3.5 stars I grabbed this book based on the title alone: This Close to Okay by Leesa Cross-Smith. Aren’t we all feeling “This close to okay” lately? I know I am. Reading inches me closer to the okay side of things. This book had a unique story line that kept me interested about a man finding hope in the wake of tragedy and a woman who unknowingly is saved along the way.
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  • Reviewed in the United States on September 16, 2021
    Wow, this book left me SPEECHLESS; it was so good!!! I rarely give 5-star reviews but I would give this book 10 stars if I could. The story was so sensitively written about what goes thru the mind of a young man who wants to complete suicide and how ONE person can make a difference, can be a lifeline for those who feel like life is too painful to keep on living. I am a mental health professional so I am usually wary of books that talk about persons struggling with suicide because too often the books are written in a way that can be quite triggering or written in a way that is completely unrealistic. This book does neither but writes about the subject with sensitivity and care. The author also does a really good job depicting how people may not necessarily want to die but grow weary of fighting off the depression, and in this case all encompassing grief - it's like treading water for YEARS and not getting any relief. I saw some of the reviewers criticizing Tallie because she was a therapist and yet she took this young man into her home - but she wasn't his therapist. She saw someone who was obviously in crisis, and yes, her training helped a lot in the situation, but she wasn't trying to be his therapist, she was trying to be his friend. Tallie and Emmett both have dealt with recent tragedies in their lives so watching them warily try to get to know each other and be there for each other was really heartwarming. There is also a lot of deception, on both of their parts, on who they really are but the one space where they are honest is bearing their pain and souls to each other. I loved Tallie and Emmett, I loved the way the author presented both of their POV and I loved the secondary characters. This would make an awesome movie or Netflix/HBO series. I am going to suggest this book for my church's book club - it was FANTASTIC!!!
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  • Reviewed in the United States on February 16, 2021
    Before even reading this review, I want all readers to know that suicide is the primary theme and focus of this novel. There is also a theme of infertility and adultery throughout. If any of these topics are triggering for you, then I recommend bypassing this novel. I originally was interested in reading this novel because I have enjoyed other books with plots that center around therapists and therapy, such as “Group” and “Maybe You Should Talk to Someone.” Overall, I have preferred other fiction books with therapy/therapist themes more than I enjoyed this book. I think that’s because those other books were based on true events and stories, their primary focus was not on suicide specifically, and the therapist character(s) was not displaying unprofessional or unethical behavior (more on that topic follows). All that said, if you enjoy books about therapy/therapists but you do not want focus solely on the subject of suicide, maybe try “Group” or “Maybe You Should Talk to Someone.”

    At the beginning of This Close to Okay, readers meet main character Tallie, who is a 40-year-old recently divorced therapist driving home from work on a Thursday. She’s taking her usual route over a bridge on her way home when she sees someone about to jump off the bridge. Tallie pulls over, yells at the man to get his attention, and then talks to him until he agrees to come with her. Emmett is the 31-year-old man who is about to jump off the bridge to commit suicide when Tallie intervenes. Emmett’s reasons for wanting to commit suicide are slowly revealed to readers over the course of the rest of the novel. The novel changes perspectives back and forth from Tallie to Emmett throughout, although I felt much of the story was told through Tallie’s perspective.

    Tallie takes Emmett out for coffee since he refuses to go to a hospital or to a family member’s house. She is understandably reluctant to leave him by himself, for fear he will go back to the bridge. She is intentionally using her therapist techniques while trying to hide the fact she is a therapist. Emmett repeatedly says he no longer feels as if he is going to hurt himself, but when readers switch to his perspective, we quickly learn he is lying to Tallie. Also, there is a point in the coffee shop when Tallie takes something from Emmett in an attempt to secretly learn more about why he was trying to jump off the bridge. In other words, immediately the main characters start their relationship with some strategic deceit.

    After some coffee and a long chat, Emmett is still refusing to either seek professional help or go to a relative or friend’s home. As a result, Tallie decides to take him home with her. This is the first in a long series of problematic ethical decisions and questionable judgements that Tallie makes during her time with Emmett which I found hard to swallow. Some readers may also have issues with the main character’s actions as she breaks several professional therapist boundaries that are in place to protect patients and ensure their well-being. However, Emmett is not a patient, even though he obviously does need professional help, therefore some readers may find it easier to dismiss Tallie’s indiscretions than I did.

    Even though the author does explain Tallie’s reasoning for taking Emmett home with her, this decision just doesn’t seem like a reasonable or believable scenario to me for three reasons. For one thing, I find it difficult to believe that a therapist would not know one single emergency resource or contact for suicide prevention. The author herself provides a suicide prevention hotline number in the back of her novel, which leads me to wonder if someone calls that hotline wouldn’t the responder have a place to send the person calling? Secondly, I had a hard time buying the idea that any single woman would pick up a man literally off the street and take him to her house especially when she lives alone. The author describes Tallie as a very perceptive and intuitive person who practically has supernatural instinct, but I still find it unfathomable.

    Finally, given that Tallie is a trained, practicing, educated therapist she has been taught to have certain boundaries and cautioned about what can happen without having boundaries. Therefore, I find it highly unlikely that she would so readily abandon her professional ethics. Readers must overcome these three logical expectations multiple times during the story. Even more ethical lines are crossed as Tallie and Emmett’s relationship grows and deepens.

    The entire novel takes place over one weekend. Tallie meets Emmett on a Thursday and he leaves her home on a Sunday. For the course of a weekend, they essentially operate as a new couple together. They go to a Halloween party together, including shopping for costumes together. They get tipsy a couple times, she cooks him meals, he cooks her meals, and he cleans the gutters of her house.

    Without revealing too much about the plot, the characters share some of their hardest hurts with each other, including some life-changing events and how they felt about them. Tallie has unresolved feelings about her former marriage and it turns out Emmett is a widower. Both share with each other up to a point, and each purposely leave out details so neither have a complete view of the other person. In some ways they open up to one another and get to know each other but in other ways both are keeping some very big secrets. However, neither person knows the other one is holding back, so each thinks that the other person is being open, trusting and honest. The character development was well done but I do think the entire story would have been more powerful if written in the first-person perspective.

    Towards the end of the book, of course all the half truths unravel. Even readers are kept in the dark about Emmett’s identity and all that he has endured. His entire truth is devastating. Tallie’s lies are also discovered by Emmett, and ironically even though they were lying to each other both feel angry and self-righteous about the other’s deceit.

    An overall theme in the description of the book is the healing power of emotional connection. I don’t know if that theme rings true to me. Even though the characters do build an emotional connection, it is based on the shaky ground of half-truths and partial lies. There is a suspension of disbelief required to believe Tallie’s actions. Some readers may have strong feelings about Tallie’s professional ethics, morals, and her treatment of a person who is so emotionally fragile.
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  • Amazon Customer
    4.0 out of 5 stars A sliver of hope is better than none
    Reviewed in the United Kingdom on February 18, 2021
    Really interesting, honest story about mental illness and finding hope at the worst times
  • JC
    5.0 out of 5 stars Didn't want to put it down.
    Reviewed in Canada on October 12, 2022
    You know the kind of story where you don't want to ever end...this is that book! Great story, great writing, a good read indeed.