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The Motherload: Episodes from the Brink of Motherhood Hardcover – January 14, 2025
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An unflinching motherhood memoir that dares to ask what happens when “what to expect when you’re expecting” turns out to be months of rage, anguish, brain fog, and a total surrender of sex, career, and identity.
“A long overdue reality check.” —Oprah Daily
“Honest, unapologetic, and brutally funny.” —Stephanie Danler, New York Times bestselling author of Sweetbitter
A Most Anticipated Book of 2025 by Oprah Daily, Town & Country, and Brit + Co
“The kid was objectively a tiny worm, even worse, a worm with my nose.” Welcome to Sarah Hoover’s candid and propulsive take on motherhood where she turns the ecstatic narrative women have been fed—one of immediate connection to your child followed by a joyful path of maternal discovery—on its head.
Like most of us, Sarah Hoover grew up imagining a certain life for herself, and when she moved from Indiana to New York City to study art history, the life she’d imagined began falling into place. She got her degree in art history, landed a job in a gallery, made friends, and met interesting artists, one of whom became her husband. But when Hoover got pregnant, everything in her life began to unravel.
She felt like an imposter in her own body. She grew distant from her friends and husband. Anxiety, fear, guilt, and shame threatened to swallow her. She also experienced trauma at the hands of one of her doctors—a stark trigger. And when her son was born, there was no… joy.
Her despair was persistent, even with help, therapy, and pills. Grieving a lost identity and angry at the world around her, she found herself despising her baby, her husband, and herself. She was afraid it might not end. With the help of a doctor’s diagnosis, Hoover began to understand the cluster of symptoms that informed her experience—she was drowning in postpartum depression—and that she wasn’t a bad mother or a failed woman.
At its core, The Motherload is about learning to forgive yourself. It’s a rejection of the cultural idea of the mother as a perfect being. And it’s an honest, propulsive, and often funny take on the vicissitudes of marriage, life, and parenting—a motherhood memoir unlike any other.
- Print length352 pages
- LanguageEnglish
- PublisherS&S/Simon Element
- Publication dateJanuary 14, 2025
- Dimensions6 x 1.2 x 9 inches
- ISBN-101668010135
- ISBN-13978-1668010136
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“Hoover’s willingness to get real about the unexpected hard parts of new motherhood is a welcome moment of truth in a culture oversaturated with sunny platitudes about childbearing.”—W Magazine
“Hoover’s writing is chatty and intimate, but it’s her compulsive honesty that makes the book hard to put down…Unsparing… there is something exhilarating about a woman who isn’t afraid of looking like a bad mom.” —The Cut
“Unfiltered, honest, and amusing… will appeal to many.” —Vogue
“With blistering honesty, Hoover lays bare her own extremely messy journey to motherhood and through post-partum depression… A long overdue reality check.” —Oprah Daily
“Open, vulnerable, and thoughtful… essential reading for anyone who's felt failed by the parental canon.” —Town & Country
“The Motherload is for all the women who wish someone had told them the truth about motherhood. Honest, unapologetic, and brutally funny…it’s about developing the strength to care for yourself and, thereby, learning to care for another.” —Stephanie Danler, New York Times bestselling author of Sweetbitter
“A stunning memoir about the turbulent yet clarifying initiation into motherhood, and about learning who you are on the other side, The Motherload reads like a no-holds-barred conversation with your funniest best friend. Sarah Hoover has a voice I’d follow anywhere. I kept thinking, Wow, I want everyone to read this wholly vital book about marriage, intimacy, identity, family, art and creativity, and, yes, our relationships with our own mothers. A completely absorbing and addicting ride.” —Chelsea Bieker, author of Madwoman and Godshot
“Finally, a funny, smart, and unapologetic treatise on the gap between motherhood’s promises and its realities, Sarah Hoover takes readers on a journey marked by hard questions and truths too often buried by cultural narratives that still—despite so many women’s experiences to the contrary—frame motherhood as the epitome of womanhood itself. The Motherload is a classic: hilarious, strikingly honest, and utterly unputdownable.” —Allie Rowbottom, author of Jell-O Girls and Aesthetica
“A poignant and grimly funny antidote to the saccharine mythology of motherhood and a universal story of the female fight for autonomy in a world dead set on denying it. With page-turning urgency, Hoover takes readers through a long, dark tunnel that ultimately opens onto the messy truth and painful beauty of love.” —Molly Roden Winter, author of More: A Memoir of Open Marriage
“I devoured The Motherload in one sitting. Hoover writes with thrilling urgency, drawing readers into the most complex and least discussed aspects of love and marriage. But this book’s most powerful gift is its frank, raw, and nearly inadvisable level of honesty around the experience of having a child. Hoover’s unvarnished candor about the darkest, most challenging aspects of motherhood ultimately illuminates its profound and transformative power.” —Chloé Cooper Jones, author of Easy Beauty
“Fiercely candid [and] admirably frank.” —Publisher's Weekly
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“Hoover’s writing is chatty and intimate, but it’s her compulsive honesty that makes the book hard to put down…Unsparing… there is something exhilarating about a woman who isn’t afraid of looking like a bad mom.” —The Cut
“Unfiltered, honest, and amusing… will appeal to many.” —Vogue
“With blistering honesty, Hoover lays bare her own extremely messy journey to motherhood and through post-partum depression… A long overdue reality check.” —Oprah Daily
“Open, vulnerable, and thoughtful… essential reading for anyone who's felt failed by the parental canon.” —Town & Country
“The Motherload is for all the women who wish someone had told them the truth about motherhood. Honest, unapologetic, and brutally funny…it’s about developing the strength to care for yourself and, thereby, learning to care for another.” —Stephanie Danler, New York Times bestselling author of Sweetbitter
“A stunning memoir about the turbulent yet clarifying initiation into motherhood, and about learning who you are on the other side, The Motherload reads like a no-holds-barred conversation with your funniest best friend. Sarah Hoover has a voice I’d follow anywhere. I kept thinking, Wow, I want everyone to read this wholly vital book about marriage, intimacy, identity, family, art and creativity, and, yes, our relationships with our own mothers. A completely absorbing and addicting ride.” —Chelsea Bieker, author of Madwoman and Godshot
“Finally, a funny, smart, and unapologetic treatise on the gap between motherhood’s promises and its realities, Sarah Hoover takes readers on a journey marked by hard questions and truths too often buried by cultural narratives that still—despite so many women’s experiences to the contrary—frame motherhood as the epitome of womanhood itself. The Motherload is a classic: hilarious, strikingly honest, and utterly unputdownable.” —Allie Rowbottom, author of Jell-O Girls and Aesthetica
“A poignant and grimly funny antidote to the saccharine mythology of motherhood and a universal story of the female fight for autonomy in a world dead set on denying it. With page-turning urgency, Hoover takes readers through a long, dark tunnel that ultimately opens onto the messy truth and painful beauty of love.” —Molly Roden Winter, author of More: A Memoir of Open Marriage
“I devoured The Motherload in one sitting. Hoover writes with thrilling urgency, drawing readers into the most complex and least discussed aspects of love and marriage. But this book’s most powerful gift is its frank, raw, and nearly inadvisable level of honesty around the experience of having a child. Hoover’s unvarnished candor about the darkest, most challenging aspects of motherhood ultimately illuminates its profound and transformative power.” —Chloé Cooper Jones, author of Easy Beauty
“Fiercely candid [and] admirably frank.” —Publisher's Weekly
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- Publisher : S&S/Simon Element (January 14, 2025)
- Language : English
- Hardcover : 352 pages
- ISBN-10 : 1668010135
- ISBN-13 : 978-1668010136
- Item Weight : 1.14 pounds
- Dimensions : 6 x 1.2 x 9 inches
- Best Sellers Rank: #24,467 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)
- #36 in Self-Help & Psychology Humor
- #118 in Motherhood (Books)
- #835 in Memoirs (Books)
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About the author

Sarah Hoover holds a master’s degree in cultural theory from Columbia and a BA in art history from NYU. Her writing has been featured in Mother Tongue, The Strategist, and Vogue. The Motherload is her first book.
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Customers find this memoir honest and emotionally engaging, with one review describing it as an eye-opening account of childbirth. The book receives positive feedback for its readability, humor, and writing quality.
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Customers appreciate the book's honesty, describing it as unapologetic and emotional, with one customer noting it provides an eye-opening account of childbirth.
"...She spares no detail. It is an unapologetically honest reflection of the expectations she just couldn’t meet as a new mother despite “having it all...." Read more
"Beautifully written, honest and emotional account of Sarah’s postpartum experience. I couldn’t put the book down and finished it in one sitting...." Read more
"...It is raw and unapologetic and honestly the voice of a generation...." Read more
"...Is she privileged? Yes. Is her experience impactful and beautifully written nonetheless? absolutely." Read more
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"...This memoir changes the dialogue and is a critical read for anyone interested in modern culture and the female experience." Read more
"Hoover’s debut novel is illuminating and wonderful. All women will find something (if not many things) in her story to connect with...." Read more
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"I liked the pace of her book, it kept moving and never got boring for me. I didn't like that she had to throw her political nonsense in...." Read more
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- Reviewed in the United States on January 22, 2025Equally entertaining and eye opening, Sarah bravely tells her journey into motherhood. She spares no detail. It is an unapologetically honest reflection of the expectations she just couldn’t meet as a new mother despite “having it all.” Her journey from the brink of motherhood will have you crying, laughing, and rooting for her the entire way. This memoir changes the dialogue and is a critical read for anyone interested in modern culture and the female experience.
- Reviewed in the United States on March 15, 2025The Motherload by Sarah Hoover ****
(moms, drugs, love, partners, rich people)
The Motherload is the most untamed collection of motherhood stories. This literary non-fiction is a collection of stories about the atrocities occurring with pregnancy and birth. Through her journey we hear about Hoover’s reaction to all things Mom even when she feels she has little to nothing to give in that department.
- Reviewed in the United States on February 21, 2025Beautifully written, honest and emotional account of Sarah’s postpartum experience. I couldn’t put the book down and finished it in one sitting. Sarah is a fantastic writer and I look forward to reading her future publications
- Reviewed in the United States on January 18, 2025After being unable to get through a book for 3 years after I had my daughter, I blew through this in 3 days. It is raw and unapologetic and honestly the voice of a generation. Hoover says all the things we are told not to say and feels all the things we are scared to admit we feel. From her experiences with men in her 20s to her birth and post partum trauma, I felt she was writing my story and the story of countless women I know! It’s also so damn funny and well written. Couldn’t have loved it more!
- Reviewed in the United States on January 28, 2025I liked the pace of her book, it kept moving and never got boring for me. I didn't like that she had to throw her political nonsense in. it could be offensive to some people as it was with me.
- Reviewed in the United States on March 22, 2025If Sarah would share a book on instagram . I’d take a screenshot and order. What joy it brought me that she wrote her own. I don’t have kids. I don’t want kids. I often sip wine and listen to ‘Building a Mystery’ and think “this is the life”. Thank you, Sarah, for being so honest and allowing me to vicariously live through your Motherload.
- Reviewed in the United States on January 14, 2025The Motherload is Hoover’s account of the severe postpartum depression she experienced after the birth of her first child, and how it affected her sense of self as well as her marriage.
Unlike Anna Marie Tendler’s Men Have Called Her Crazy, Hoover’s memoir is raw and unflinchingly honest. It also advances the reader’s knowledge of postpartum depression by showing how prior sexual trauma, and trauma unnecessarily inflicted by health care providers during the birth process can make the experience much worse.
However, the book will likely engender strong mixed responses as Hoover’s experiences are colored by social class. The financial resources to which Hoover has access — including a full-time nanny, therapy, and time away from work — are luxuries very few women can afford. While acknowledging her privilege, Hoover does not address what ordinary women should do if they find themselves suffering the same debilitating condition.
That being said, I still found the book to be a worthwhile read, as it is a well-written and compelling account of the ravaging effects of postpartum depression on the many women who have suffered in silence.
Thanks to Simon & Schuster and NetGalley for providing me with a complimentary advanced copy of this book.
- Reviewed in the United States on January 22, 2025As someone who has yet to produce a human, I am eternally grateful for this book existing. It is one of the wittiest, honest, eloquent takes on motherhood. I have so many friends who have struggled with postpartum in varying degrees and am relieved it is finally at long last being destigmatized. I think we are lucky to have someone like Sarah Hoover to do that for us. I bought another copy for my boyfriend because I think men need to be educated on the myth of motherhood as well. I cannot believe this is her first book, I hope it is not her last!
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- LizReviewed in Canada on January 18, 2025
5.0 out of 5 stars The only motherhood memoir you need to read
Honest, funny, raw, and reassuring—this is the book we need to be giving to expecting mothers, new mothers, mothers who still haven't healed from their birth & postpartum experience - however many years later - men, ESPECIALLY MEN. Sarah has a knack for writing about painful, harrowing experiences with levity and compassion for herself and anyone else who may have gone through something similar. I laughed, I cried, I took photos of passages I wanted to remember forever. It's perfect!! Read it now!