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I'm a Fan: A Novel Paperback – September 5, 2023
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“A fast, fizzing cherry bomb of a debut” (The Observer [UK]) about power, intimacy, and the internet
I stalk a woman on the internet who is sleeping with the same man as I am.
Sheena Patel’s incandescent first novel begins with the unnamed narrator describing her involvement in a seemingly unequal romantic relationship. With a clear and unforgiving eye, she dissects the behavior of all involved, herself included, and makes startling connections between the power struggles at the heart of human relationships and those of the wider world. I’m a Fan offers a devastating critique of class, social media, patriarchy’s hold on us, and our cultural obsession with status and how that status is conveyed.
In this unforgettable debut, Patel announces herself as a dynamic, commanding new voice in literature, capable of rendering a rollercoaster of emotions and experiences viscerally on the page. Sex, brutality, politics, work, art, tenderness, humor―Patel tackles them all while making the reader complicit in the inescapable trap of fandom that seems to define the modern condition.
- Print length216 pages
- LanguageEnglish
- PublisherGraywolf Press
- Publication dateSeptember 5, 2023
- Dimensions5.5 x 0.55 x 8.2 inches
- ISBN-101644452456
- ISBN-13978-1644452455
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Editorial Reviews
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“I read this debut book basically in one sitting over the summer. . . . The narrative voice is hypnotic, hilarious, and unexpected in all the best ways. You can’t stop reading it.”―Ottessa Moshfegh, Vogue's “5 Books That Changed My Life”
“Sheena Patel’s I'm a Fan is an impolite novel about romantic obsession . . . allowing the narrator’s ferocious id to spin out thrillingly and unapologetically. . . . Patel’s clever novel suggests just how easily such ambitions can be lost in the power imbalance of heterosexual libidinal attachment.”―Tracy O'Neill, The New York Times Book Review
“A queasy, ruthless novel of sexual obsession and self-destruction in the preening, perfectible age of social media. . . . I’m a Fan [is] an unsettling, unmissable read.”―Jamie Hood, Vulture
“Sheena Patel eviscerates the rich kid art world, as exemplified by a particularly toxic ex. It’s written in a speedy, fragmented internal monologue, which makes for an absolutely propulsive read.”―Maggie Lange, Bustle
“The corrosive logic of one-sided relationships is the subject of this dryly funny polemical novel, told from the perspective of a young woman obsessed with her married lover and his ex-girlfriend. . . . A mixture of loathing and desire.”―The New Yorker
“Patel’s debut is one of the first great social media novels. . . . A bold, electric, and ruthless tale of sex, class, status, obsession, self-destruction, and the worst parts of being online, all told from the perspective of a beguiling unnamed narrator.”―The Millions
“This blazing debut has already taken the U.K. by storm and will set American readers on fire. Patel explores the politics of sex and relationships in a searing manner. I’m a Fan will shock you in the best way.”―Debutiful's “Most Anticipated Debuts of 2023
“Patel’s insights are breathtakingly keen, particularly when detailing how, as a person of color, the narrator is expected to lay her pain bare to receive the pleasure of belonging. . . . Patel acutely captures how identity and intimacy can feel both deepened and deadened in the Instagram era’s attention economy.”―Publishers Weekly
“Blisteringly self-aware, the narrator knows she is trapped in a cycle of desiring the things she hates the most: wealth, influence, fans, prestige, expensive objects. . . . Chaotic and cathartic.”―Kirkus Reviews
“A barbed, gut-punch confession. . . . Writing in scathing bursts, Patel mutates a predictable cliché into an implosive exposé of white privilege, gendered power dynamics, [and] women-for-women hypocrisy. . . . An anti-Bridget Jones for the shortfused, screen-addicted generation.”―Booklist
“Like the social media feed of a person you follow and envy, Patel has made a book that is tough to look at, yet equally tough to look away from.”―Kathleen Rooney, Star Tribune (Minneapolis)
“In the case of the anti-algorithm of this bruisingly cynical novel, if you hate superficiality, you’ll love this.”―Melissa Holbrook Pierson, The Brooklyn Rail
“Fresh and original. . . . [I'm a Fan] explores identity, class, patriarchy and pop culture, all within a framework of heart and humor, irony and iconoclasm.”―Karla J. Strand, Ms. Magazine
“I’m a Fan journeys into the gruesome underworld of social media. . . . [The narrator's] sophisticated helplessness reminded me of the fin-de-siècle decadents who rhapsodized about the life-destroying pleasures of opium.”―Sam Sacks, The Wall Street Journal
“Patel fights against the narrator’s marginalized status by imbuing her with a powerful, shattering voice. Instead of side-stepping around race and sex, the narrator bluntly confesses her desires to the reader. . . . In a time where we need to speak openly about racial and sexual violence, Patel’s debut implores readers to wake the hell up.”―Liv Albright, Chicago Review of Books
“I’m a Fan is an extraordinary and electrifying psycho-literary experience. Patel is a whirling, slippery, formidable storyteller coaxing the reader into a familiar and sinister interiority. Sticky and instinctual, this book slides us all willingly along the sharp edge of obsession.”―Ella Baxter, author of New Animal
“I’m a Fan by Sheena Patel is like Pop Rocks in your mouth. Burnt coffee on your tongue. Frostbitten fingers. It’s been a long while since my heart raced over the prospect of turning a page in a book. Sheena Patel is an evil genius of a writer.”―Chloe Caldwell, author of The Red Zone: A Love Story
“I'm A Fan digs its nails deep into the contradictions of power and status with a brutally steady gaze. It's rare to find a book so thrillingly unafraid to offend, so willing to forgo niceties, so full of verve and bristling with insight.”―Alexandra Kleeman
“Patel skewers not narcissism per se but rather the conditions that make it a necessary recourse. The performance of narcissism is a demand put upon people trying to find a foothold in an industry in which more and more new content comes ever more quickly, an intensification that coincides both with concentration of resources in ever fewer hands and with the proliferation of demands on our attention.”―Sarah Brouillette, Public Books
“A fast, fizzing cherry bomb of a debut.”―Bidisha, The Observer (UK)
“A brutal, brilliant debut. . . . The desperate, cornered strength of the narrative voice in I’m a Fan is like nothing I’ve ever read.”―Lamorna Ash, The Guardian (UK)
“Spellbinding. . . . [Patel] compellingly dissects the roles race, class, and privilege play in the power dynamics of a relationship. . . . An exhilarating read from a refreshing new author.”―Christiana Bishop, The New Statesman (UK)
“Heads with a terrifying directness to dark (often horribly recognizable) places. . . . Cold fury powers I’m a Fan; it’s meant to be discomforting and it works, mesmerizingly well.”―Siobhan Murphy, The Times (UK)
“Unlike the women in Rooney and Moshfegh’s fiction, the narrator of I’m A Fan is not allusive, but very blunt and cohesive in her recognition of everyone’s culpability for violence and cruelty―including her own. . . . A voice to remember.”―Vartika Rastogi, The Cardiff Review (UK)
Product details
- Publisher : Graywolf Press (September 5, 2023)
- Language : English
- Paperback : 216 pages
- ISBN-10 : 1644452456
- ISBN-13 : 978-1644452455
- Item Weight : 2.31 pounds
- Dimensions : 5.5 x 0.55 x 8.2 inches
- Best Sellers Rank: #318,899 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)
- #3,225 in Psychological Fiction (Books)
- #17,932 in Literary Fiction (Books)
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- Reviewed in the United States on April 24, 20243.5 stars - This was definitely a rollercoaster of opinions for me while reading this book. The first quarter I was quite bored reading about the main character being obsessive and it felt like the plot was never going to go anywhere and was seconds away from DNF. Then the author starts adding in chapters with a fresh dialogue on race, gender, selfhood, social class and colonialism parsed between the aforementioned obsessive chapters. Gave me a bit of whiplash tbh but I do think this book brings up some really important and interesting themes captured through an unexpected POV, you just have to go through some crazy to get there
- Reviewed in the United States on June 20, 2024every woman needs to read this I think. Even if you haven’t been in these exact situations almost every chapter has something relatable.
- Reviewed in the United States on October 22, 2024Can’t wait to read!
- Reviewed in the United States on April 25, 2024I picked this book up because the premise seemed so interesting. But it was incredibly boring; it’s been almost three months and I can’t even bring myself to finish it, and I’m an avid reader. The writing style and choices are quite bad. I wasn’t expecting each chapter to be written like this, with no dialogue, poor descriptions, and these very corny chapter titles. Huge let down.
- Reviewed in the United States on February 11, 2024there were passages of this book i found really insightful and educational; that struck a nerve with me about the like innate feelings and emotions of a woman in a world not built for her and the way its writes about yearning for a love that doesn’t want you or doesn’t respect you was really passionate. but i think there was also loads about this book i did not get and i found it so so hard to get through. it didn’t make me want to pick it up and read it - i found it like wading through treacle in places - but maybe i was meant to? maybe i’m not clever enough for this book really?
- Reviewed in the United States on May 9, 2024I give it a 3.5 for originality, brutal honesty and sending me back to the days of being intrigued by the worst possible men.
Well written, cringey and funny-sad.
- Reviewed in the United States on September 18, 2024Brilliant and brutal. Those who hate it must be recognizing too much of themselves in the characters.
- Reviewed in the United States on September 10, 2023This book has been lauded quite a bit and I had been eagerly waiting to get my hands on it. Thanks to NetGalley and Graywolf press for the ARC.
This is a quick read single speaker story of an unreliable narrator. The author pulls it off with ease though. The pace of the story feels like a sign of our times. Great read. Eagerly awaiting future works from the author.
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- NinaminacatReviewed in the United Kingdom on April 30, 2023
4.0 out of 5 stars Social comment as important as the plotline
This is a difficult one for me to review, since posting a book review is about as close to social media as I get. I am sure that as with Patricia Lockwood's "no one is talking about this", though perhaps to a lesser extent, this put me at a disadvantage.
I appreciate that the format was appropriate to the virtual stalking of "the woman (our protagonist) was obsessed with" but I personally found it made the narrative annoyingly disjointed - I can see from other reviews that I am not alone in this; for one reviewer the storyline was completely obscured. This is a shame because it deals with some important issues. The (nameless) non-white narrator clearly feels disadvantaged by her colour, in spite of her high level of education, her clear intelligence and the eloquence which allows her to make social comment while telling her story. Her keenness to buy into the "white" world she finds so attractive online leads her to make some bad decisions - which I don't want to reveal; to find out more, you will need to read the book yourself. She's extremely self contradictory; while she is obviously aware of patriarchal and racist structures, she subjects herself to them and perhaps even exploits them herself. She knows that "the (married) man she wants to be with" (who is also having an on/off affair with "the woman she's obsessed with") regards her as a non-white trophy. In spite of having a long-term boyfriend of her own, she is still eager for this toxic relationship - which seems to relegate her to the role an escort rather than a true girlfriend - and she in fact uses his race for her own purpose of trying to gain admittance to the white world, so the racism is working both ways. In the same way she appreciates the dangers of social media fixation, whilst admitting to her own obsession. The end of the book is equally self contradictory - and very powerful.
One word of warning - if you require your characters to be likeable, you may struggle.
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GaryReviewed in Spain on October 14, 2023
5.0 out of 5 stars Original!
Brutal...un placer literario.
- Ashley RaynorReviewed in the Netherlands on January 14, 2025
3.0 out of 5 stars An obsessed and erratic person's diary...
3.5 stars.
It's a short book, you can breeze through in a day. I liked that the book had short chapters, that felt like you were reading someone's diary. Albeit with some very obsessive and disturbing thoughts. It was a fun read for me, but might not be everyone's cup of tea.
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valeriaReviewed in Italy on December 28, 2022
5.0 out of 5 stars Molto consigliato
Bel libro, scritto molto bene e storia accattivante
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Melissa Nieto CassabReviewed in Mexico on May 27, 2024
5.0 out of 5 stars Me encantó
Este libro te hace sentir como cuando te metes de lleno en el perfil de instagram de tu crush. Si alguna vez has estado demasiado obsesionado con alguien este libro te hará reír.