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Fear Is Just a Word: A Missing Daughter, a Violent Cartel, and a Mother's Quest for Vengeance Hardcover – September 26, 2023

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A riveting true story of a mother who fought back against the drug cartels in Mexico, pursuing her own brand of justice to avenge the kidnapping and murder of her daughter—from a global investigative correspondent for The New York Times

“Azam Ahmed has written a page-turning mystery but also a stunning, color-saturated portrait of the collapse of formal justice in one Mexican town.”—Steve Coll, Pulitzer Prize–winning author of
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Fear Is Just a Word begins on an international bridge between Mexico and the United States, as fifty-six-year-old Miriam Rodríguez stalks one of the men she believes was involved in the murder of her daughter Karen. He is her target number eleven, a member of the drug cartel that has terrorized and controlled what was once Miriam’s quiet hometown of San Fernando, Mexico, almost one hundred miles from the U.S. border. Having dyed her hair red as a disguise, Miriam watches, waits, and then orchestrates the arrest of this man, exacting her own version of justice.

Woven into this deeply researched, moving account is the story of how cartels built their power in Mexico, escalated the use of violence, and kidnapped and murdered tens of thousands. Karen was just one of the many people who disappeared, and Miriam, a brilliant, strategic, and fearless woman, begged for help from the authorities and paid ransom money she could not afford in hopes of saving her daughter. When that failed, she decided that “fear is just a word,” and began a crusade to track down Karen’s killers and to help other victimized families in their search for justice.

What do people do when their country and the peaceful town where they have grown up become unrecognizable, suddenly places of violence and fear? Azam Ahmed takes us into the grieving of a country and a family to tell the mesmerizing story of a brave and brilliant woman determined to find out what happened to her daughter, and to see that the criminals who murdered her were punished.
Fear Is Just a Word is an unforgettable and moving portrait of a woman, a town, and a country, and of what can happen when violent forces leave people to seek justice on their own.
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Publishers Weekly says riveting . . . Painstakingly reported and propulsively written

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Daniel Alarcón says an engrossing portrait of a mother’s transformation into an angel of vengeance

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An Amazon Best Book of October 2023: Fear Is Just a Word is a work of reportage so epic and so meticulous, its central story so devastating and vividly personal, that putting it down will be practically impossible for readers, not until the very last page. One evening in 2014, Miriam Rodríguez got an anguished call from her eldest daughter, informing her that members of the Mexican drug cartel known as the Zetas had abducted her youngest daughter, Karen. A native of a Zeta stronghold—San Fernando, Mexico—Miriam had fought tooth and nail for Karen’s life years before—in a Houston hospital ward—and now she fought for it again, becoming part vigilante, part detective, part constitutional lawyer, and all avenging angel. A heartbreaking account of one mother’s stand for justice in a world gone mad, as well as a painful, harrowing history of how drug cartels came to feed the beast of demand from Mexico’s neighbor to the north with a depraved disregard for life and law, Azam Ahmed’s true crime tale is absolutely electrifying. —Vannessa Cronin, Amazon Editor

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“Ahmed writes about violence in Mexico with insight and sobriety, avoiding the usual markers of journalistic prose (descriptions of the research process, references to site visits). Instead, he maintains a cautious, at times exhilarating, distance from his material, letting the story unfold at a rapid pace, as if on its own, interweaving the contextual and the intimate in a series of vivid juxtapositions.”—Cristina Rivera Garza, The New York Times

“From one of the best reporters of his generation comes this masterful portrait of nightmarish violence, endless pain, and great courage. Azam Ahmed shows us what America’s insatiable lust for drugs has done to one Mexican family and town just across the border.”
—George Packer, author of Our Man

“Azam Ahmed has written a page-turning mystery but also a stunning, color-saturated portrait of the collapse of formal justice in one Mexican town.”
—Steve Coll, Pulitzer Prize–winning author of Directorate S

Fear Is Just a Word is a brilliant piece of nonfiction storytelling. Ultimately it offers up a restorative tale of human redemption through individual courage.”—Jon Lee Anderson, author of Che

“With graceful, unflinching prose, Azam Ahmed brings us straight to the heart of cartel violence. The complexity with which he renders his brave subject, Miriam Rodríguez, only deepens the infuriating tragedy into which her family and country have been drawn. I can’t stop thinking about this book.”
—Sierra Crane Murdoch, author of Yellow Bird

“A riveting work of reportage, set against the ruins of a drug war gone hopelessly, violently awry . . . I couldn’t put it down.”
—Daniel Alarcón, author of The King Is Always Above the People

“Staggeringly well-reported, propulsive, vibrantly populated, powerfully gripping, and moving . . . Miriam is the avenging ‘mother of all Mexicans’ who had a child ‘disappear’ into the inferno of Mexico’s militarized drug cartel.”
—Francisco Goldman, author of Monkey Boy

“Ahmed captures the essence of humanity in this deeply moving story about a brave yet flawed woman desperately searching for her daughter’s assassins as the clock ticks.”
—Alfredo Corchado, author of Midnight in Mexico

“In his indelible work about a personal tragedy set against the canvas of a societal one, Ahmed writes about Mexico with uncommon authority and a broken heart.”
—Gary Shteyngart, author of Our Country Friends

“A harrowing exposé, years in the making, of the tyranny of the drug cartels in Mexico.”
Kirkus Reviews (starred review)

“Painstakingly reported and propulsively written, this is nearly impossible to put down.”
Publishers Weekly (starred review)

“This vivid, disturbing story will appeal to readers interested in drug cartels and true crime.”
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  • Publisher ‏ : ‎ Random House (September 26, 2023)
  • Language ‏ : ‎ English
  • Hardcover ‏ : ‎ 384 pages
  • ISBN-10 ‏ : ‎ 0593448413
  • ISBN-13 ‏ : ‎ 978-0593448410
  • Item Weight ‏ : ‎ 1.4 pounds
  • Dimensions ‏ : ‎ 6.38 x 1.24 x 9.53 inches
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Azam Ahmed is an international investigative correspondent for the New York Times. He was previously the Times' bureau chief for Mexico, Central America and the Caribbean, where he produced a series of stories on violence that was awarded the George Polk Award, the Overseas Press Club Award, the Michael Kelly Award and the Medill Medal for Courage in Journalism. His work also included a series of groundbreaking stories on the illegal use of spyware known as Pegasus in Mexico.

Prior to that, Mr. Ahmed was the bureau chief for the Times in Kabul, Afghanistan.

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In 2014, while driving down the street in her hometown of San Fernando, twenty year old Karen Rodriguez was abducted by armed men from México’s Zeta cartel, forced into their vehicle and held for ransom. After several attempts to get her daughter back, Miriam Rodriguez comes to discover her daughter has been murdered. Nothing is more powerful than a mother’s love, and Miriam was FIERCE in her determination to turn her family’s grief into justice. For three years, largely on her own, she hunted down the men she knew to be responsible for Karen’s death. Ahmed brings us a riveting account of not only Miriam’s unflinching resolve, but an insightful look into the cartels, how they came to be, and how deeply they have terrorized the country. Torn apart by violence and government indifference, the people of México preserve. Miriam was a shining example of that.
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  • Reviewed in the United States on September 1, 2024
    What a story.
  • Reviewed in the United States on September 30, 2023
    I’ve personally experienced this in my own family so reading Miriam’s story helped me process a little more of what my father may have experienced. The one thing I would challenge the author is to include some resources for families who experienced this to move forward. Just a thought. Well-written . Thank you for sharing their story.
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  • Reviewed in the United States on September 29, 2023
    This is one of the most profound books I’ve read in recent history. It’s that special breed of nonfiction books that reads like a gripping novel with a strong narrative tone and intensity. I couldn’t put it down.
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  • Reviewed in the United States on October 18, 2023
    One paragraph was repeated twice in one chapter; the chapters are poorly organized; lots of extraneous words and details; unclear takeaways. It's not a bad book, but you may be less disappointed by the end if you skim most of it.
    7 people found this helpful
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  • Reviewed in the United States on September 29, 2023
    This book is a haunting story that I couldn’t put down. Highly recommend
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  • Reviewed in the United States on March 2, 2025
    Interesting true story about a mom’s amazing efforts to avenge the death of her daughter by drug cartel’s in Mexico. It is gritty and heart wrenching. Nothing like a momma scorned.
  • Reviewed in the United States on October 5, 2023
    Fear is Just a Word is a story with many layers. It's the tale of a mother seeking revenge. It's the worst nightmare of a parent whose child has gone missing. It's the story of marginalized youth living in a failed state and their path to perdition. Azam Ahmed tells all these stories with empathy, heart, and the thoroughness of a skilled investigative journalist.

    Ahmed spent years sitting down with many of the characters in this book, specially the family of Miriam Rodriguez, revisiting every detail of a tragic story so that this important work of nonfiction could come to life.

    The story will be captivating for readers for different reasons. Just like a thriller, you will be pulled into Miriam's relentless quest to bring justice to everyone involved in her daughter's murder. It's also a well-documented work about the making of the drug cartel in Mexico and how it thrived under the auspices of lay enforcement and government authorities.

    But what makes Fear Is Just a Word and Ahmed's writing an important work is more nuanced. At some point in the book, Ahmed recounts a time when Miriam confronted one of her targets after his arrest. Her conscious and humanity pushed side to side from anger to compassion, from wanting justice to offering food to her daughter's perpetrator.

    Many members of the drug cartel who were involved in her daughter's murder grew up in the streets of San Fernando. They worked at gas stations, begged for money in the streets, and were her daughter's friends. Some were forced to join the cartel; others joined by choice.

    The violence in this story is inexcusable and, many times, incomprehensible. But a criminal was a child, a daughter, or a neighbor once. The lives of victims and perpetrators are intertwined in San Fernando and other parts of Mexico. In the end, everyone is a casualty of a failing state, corruption, and violence.

    Ahmed's writing does justice to Miriam's plight, but also to the many lives lost to the war on drugs in Mexico.
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  • Reviewed in the United States on September 26, 2023
    A fascinating book about issues and terror in a town in Mexico and one woman’s fight to make a difference. When her youngest daughter is kidnapped for ransom, Miriam takes on the cartel and the government to seek justice. Soon she is also aiding other families who have lost loved ones to the insanity overtaking her town.
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